forty

That’s right… I’m forty today! Jeez, how did that happen?

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I have to say, I’ve been feeling a fair bit of trepidation about this one. My usual, yearly birthday musings about where I am at and what I’m spending my time doing have been amplified by the magnitude of that number and the struggle which my sister is going through in her life… in some ways, that’s made me much more connected with the need to make the best of my life right now and yet, at the same time, I feel acutely aware of time passing. Surely both good motivators, no?! Well, definitely yes… but being moved by a sense of urgency alone can be exhausting- I also need to learn how and when to relax and go easy on life and myself! Some of my mates who’ve already stepped over the threshold into 40 say that it’s the time of not caring so much about other peoples expectations, of letting go of some of your own, of knowing when to push and when to surrender. I’m up for that.

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So, my birthday wishes for the year ahead? Peace for Sarah, however that takes shape, and some family time. Tenacity. A shower (or even a bath!) in my very own, new bathroom and lots of friends in our house. The beginnings of a back garden. Some time to get to know my new, soon-to-arrive macro lens, a very generous present from my family- be prepared for lots of plant photos! A glimpse of a different horizon- NYC? Scotland? Some good creating. Is that too many wishes?! It is 40, after all- I figure I get a few extra this year!

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10 thoughts on “forty

  1. Nicole Dupuis

    Happy, happy birthday! I hope that all your wishes come true. The whole “not caring as much about what other people think” thing has been true for me in my 40s and it’s a blessing, let me tell you!

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  2. mary jane

    Happy Birthday!!!! If you travel to New York you’ve gotta come to Maine. I’ll drive down and get you if I have to! Then again, a rendezvous in Scotland sounds nice.

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  3. Tony

    Happy birthday Jules! I know what you mean about 40 and then just when I’d gotten used to it I turned 50. I think it’s like airing the stash, you realise that there are some things that aren’t really what you want any more and you should focus on what you really want to do. A trip to NYC or Scotland (or both!) sounds fab.

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  4. Cassandra

    Writing from the future to say I hope you have a wonderful day tomorrow! Below is message I left on Ravelry, just in case:

    Long time! But maybe we can see each other again – I’ll be in Melbourne 31 Dec- 3 Jan and then again 17-19 Jan – are you around? Please say yes! I’m coming for concerts and am bringing Marco and we would LOVE to see you! Any chance of fitting in a tea date somewhere? Botanic gardens or so? Email is best!

    Love
    Cassandra xx

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